Monday 16 May 2011

Change.

For the past week I have literally thought about changing who I am. What really made me realise that I need to change aspects of my life are my two friends, Ollie and Griff. They made me realise I don't really have much self respect and I need to stop messing around and selling myself cheap.

All I have done since I split up with my ex boyfriend (17 months ago) is mess around with guys purely because being single was something new to me as I was in two long term relationships since I was 15.

I wasn't this person before, I used to never ever sleep with anyone apart from in relationships. I used to have some self control and I think a year ago I started to lose it.

When girls start to sleep around they get away with it for a bit but then when you start telling people about what you are doing, you get judged. You are brutally told that you are ''easy'' when really all you thought you were doing was having fun. As more people tend to make jokes about whoring yourself out and having ''fun'' It starts to dwell on you that maybe there is some element of reality in these comments.

I don't want it to get the point where I start to build a negative reputation for myself. My friends tell me that at university in Fresher's week the girls who sleep with guys are talked about, they never live down the reputation they get after this week. It is never forgotten that they have slept with someone every night of the week. But then of course when a guy does it he is just such a lad and a player and all his friends egg him on. Why do us girls have to receive such negativity when we are just simply having fun, doing exactly the same as what the guy does.

Monday 9 May 2011

Birthday Bash

I moved out my East London flat a couple of months ago and I really miss it, when I need space from some people or my family I could always stay there for a few days or however long I wanted to and now I feel there is nowhere I can go to escape, to get some fresh air. Everything is more fun there, There is no bad drama. In Chiswick there have been a few events recently which really made me want to go back to my different life in the East. I realised that someone who I thought was a good person deep down, who I hoped would have some sort of respect for me is really just a lost cause. I'm dissapointed because this person brought out the worst in me and I felt I had to be really nasty to get my point across. I don't think I have ever been this nasty to anyone in my life. Not even any of my ex-boyfriends. I would love to go into detail but I'm scared that I will expose too much and this will be talked about which will probably land me in more trouble.

What else has been happening?

It was my 19th Birthday on the 24th April and I had a house party. I did something completely out of character...I did not get completely off my rocker...shocking isn't it. One of my friends DJ'ed for me and played amazing music, after a few bottles, jugs of pimms, shots etc everyone was skankin'  My crazy mother made at least 3 bbq's, one which took place at midnight, in the pouring rain, she looked hilarious, holding an umbrella in one hand and a spatula in the other (whilst drunk) People had fun even though it was pissing down outside, a small group sat around my table outside drinking pimms for hours.

Apparently,Torres scored....?

My friend, Imogen made me an incredible chocolate cake



It tasted incredible. The icing itself would have ended any girl's diet. DELISH.

I might do a ''Barbie's Birthday take two'' and take three....and mabe four..five and so on...


<3 Mummy And Me <3

A wannabe ''Girl About Town''

You can imagine my disdain when I saw that one of the characters on ''Made In Chelsea'' has a blog named ''Girl About Town''

I can guess this means that people will be looking for her online and they will stumble across my blog (which is waaay better of course)

I havn't blogged in a while as per usual, I guess I just kind of forget to write. I really wish that someone found this blog and paid me to write even though all the things I mention is mostly pointless babble.

Seeing as I have just watched ''Made In Chelsea'' I'll dedicate this post to that rahhhh show.

Preppy kids living in Chelsea and Sloane Square used to be the girls in UGG boots with the blonde highlights constantly flicking their hair back whilst repeating ''YAH'' over and over again, now the stereotype has developed and maybe even changed a little, I havn't seen girls teetering around in their UGG boots for a while now yah cuz that is so not fashion anymore.Under any circumstances. I would not be seen dead wearing ''UGG's''

We associate these born and bred chelsea folk with money,designer clothes (Louis Vuitton handbags/Chanel purses/Marc Jacobs perfume/Dior make-up/and yaaahh the dreaded ugg boots) and with posh accents. The funny thing is, even the middle class laugh at these poncey types when they have pretty posh rah accents too. God I'm bored about writing about ''those people''