Missing.

It's weird how when you feel like you like someone that has been a good friend for ages can turn into more than that. I am indicisive so i thought it COULD be a good idea because you know the person inside out and the relationship could be incredible...but then also it could go completely wrong
E.g your friendship is ruined and beyond repair.
It can be awkward and uncomfortable in friendship circles.
They know your weaknesses and vulnerability.

But after making the decision not to pursue 'X' i feel at loss somehow...Maybe because i know it would be good but i always focus on the negative.