BBC Interview & Singletons Valentines

WOOOOOOOOO I got an offer at Canterbury to do Fine Art. When my mum told me I almost cried. Well that's a lie, I did definetly cry a lil bit. Ok a lot, I was in floods of tears. I joke.


Urgghhh I am feeling so frustrated with myself.

Im missing someone that I shouldn't be. He wasn't good for me then and he still wouldn't be now. It's weird because I can't explain it. It not like having feelings for someone or just even fancying them, I don't think you can put a label on it.

I can't believe it took this much to make me miss him. I sound like a lovesick teenager.

Valentines Day

Is commercial.

This is what every single singleton say's out there. They make up a whole list of excuses so that they don't feel lonely. They say It's commercial, It's not a real day of the year, just an excuse to spend money on pointless gifts such as flowers and cards. Cards get thrown into the garbage eventually, or get burnt after the girl has been dumped, flowers die after three days. Single people can easily picture themselves sitting on the sofa, like the ultimate spinster slob, in front of the telly watching Bridget Jones'  (Abbreviated from Briget Jones' Diary because lets not lie, we have seen it 14 times) I should know. I am one of these people in some ways, I'm definetly a negative person at times and V Day is another excuse to be negative. I sugarcoat it by using the term ''realistic''


BBC INTERVIEW

So, I went to the BBC last week and had my interview for ''Finishing School For Girls'' I walk into the huge building and she meets me on the ground floor. She then takes me into an office with a camera pointed at my face and attaches a microphone to my coat.

The woman is called Sue. She asked me loads of really personal questions about my past, people I used to be friends with, ex boyfriends, family and what drugs I used to take. I was clever. I told her things that my mother already knows about. She had already asked me all of this on the phone so It felt weird repeating everything I had already told her, but in front of a camera and this other woman. The other woman squinted at me as if she knew everything about me and tried to read into my body language.

To be honest, It felt like a counselling session. Especially with the other woman, sitting cross legged, leaning forward with her hand on her chin, squinting at me and trying to understand who I was. I felt good vibes from her, she was warm and friendly and didn't have a front. The only question she asked me was why I didn't want to have children. She probably wanted to hear that I was unable to have children. Sorry to dissapoint you.